Schizophrenia Diaries

I have 3 brothers and i am the oldest.  I have a good family and we where raised well, so that nature vs. nurture is out of the question here.  The 2nd to the youngest brother had his first mental break at 17 and i thought he was smoking crack.  I was so afraid and i didnt know how to deal with it.  We brought him to the ER and found out he had a mental illness. i was then relieved, but not for long.  He was in many hospitals and tried many meds until one worked.  

Well he cant seem to stay on the meds, cant hold a job, and cant get help for insurance.  I parents went broke buying his $1500 a month prescriptions.  But he never took them he was just hiding them.  He resorted to doing street drugs to stop the voices, and he was stealing to buy for them.  he is doing 5 years in jail.  thanks the illness.  he regrets everything he has done but his life is over in his eyes.  He talks about how much better everyone’s life would be without him.  I cant image life without him, no matter what he does or has done.  NEVER GIVE UP ON SOMEONE YOU LOVE!!!!!  

So just a month ago my youngest brother came down with the same thing.  I thought my life was over and i couldn’t deal with this again.  he takes his meds and is living well.  I WILL NEVER GIVE UP!  

People in their lives made fun of them & used them and to this i have to say KRAMA will be back for you.