Schizophrenia Diaries

I am a 30 year old female and I live with schizophrenia. It started when I was 15. In high school, the school work was hard and pressures to go to a good college was high. I started to hear people talking to me. At first it was occasional but it quickly started to hear them all the time.
During classses the voices would talk to me and they would even tell me the answers on the test. I tried to get rid of them but they would not go away. I wanted to tell my mom but telling someone you hear voices is hard.
After a while the school told my mom to bring me to a docotr. I went to see the doctor and he put me in the hospital that day. I went on medication and gained over 100lbs. I no longer had any friends and did not take care of myself.
I hated being on medication because of the side effects. Now I have been on medication for over 15 years. I have alot of health problems but I am trying to deal with them. My personality is alot different than it used to be but I like it. I do not have any need for friends and I hate loud noise and flashing lights. I still here voices everyday but I learned to ignore them. Sometimes I do not know if somebody is talking to me because most of the time they are not. I love to be alone and my doctor says that’s bad.
I usually like to stay at home. Now I force myself to go out for at least two hours a day. Life is hard but sometimes I think I am better off than others becuase so many things that bother them do not bother me.