Schizophrenia Diaries

I first came down with schizophrenia when I was 16, but I had no idea what had happened to me. I just knew that I had lost my ability to function like I used to and I couldn’t remember who I was anymore. It happened right as my friend was getting across to my mind that other people were around me that I couldn’t see, and I noticed people around (which later I have realized is an ability known as telepathy) He then said that they could know everything about me. That is when the illness hit, because it was not true that people can know everything about you, even if they could be in our minds.

What I have come to, that has cured me, is that people can not know who you are. Because, Who you believe yourself to be in your heart is who you are (Your Soul) From your soul is where you get regular functioning. You can decide how you want to come across to people and what is important for you to do and get done. If you believe that somebody could know this part of you it would throw you off completely from who you really are, and you would not be able to function the same and also you would begin to think all sorts of different dillusions about who you are and what reality really is!

So regaining a stable concept of what a normal person’s function is has enabled me to reconnect with my actual soul and to be in control of a ‘me’ that I actually recognize. To do this you must know that you heart (feelings) and your soul (who you believe yourself to be in your heart.) are hidden from the world.

I think a functioning in ourselves that we had never known about came over us suddenly and we were unable to distinguish the true boundry lines. This functioning is known as telepathy, being able to connect with other people in our minds. This is a function that we have control over. We can control what we speak in a similar manner to controling what we think. So having your thoughts known isn’t a privacy issue seeing that we choose what we will reveal to people!