Schizophrenia Diaries

By writing these expierences to you I feel as if I can deal with it better. I’m 17 years old and since the age of 7 or so I have seen things and heard things on a regular basis. But the older I have become the more it seems to plague my thoughts, my dreams, even reality.

It started I believe when I heard a voice from the other side of the room. It was night time and the shadows and light from outside made the figure look tall and lancky. He was shadow standing there in the corner mombling to himself. When I would try to say something he would pull himself into the darkness until the he was silent. This would occur every so often. The odd part was he slowly manifested himself until he wasn’t a shadow but rather a person. He has no face but wears a suit. Sometimes I see him across the street, sometimes outside my house, and he usually liked to be in the corner of my room.
But that’s only one of many things. I have smoked cannabis and hoping it would help me, it backfired and now I’m worse then before. I can feel things in my body, hear people talking and shift into my morbid reality. I have wrote these things down in a journal.

It’s hard to say all of these accounts. Even hard to write them down. Please I hope you know im trying my best to say it.

My dreams are of fire and death, and when I wake up I can people I know through walls like a painting. Voices talking, saying things I don’t want to hear. It’s always quiet before the storm.