Schizophrenia Diaries

At the age of 22 I was a happy wealthy healthy girl in a 3 year relationship which ended after nine years. At 22 I was making 400 to 800 per day. I was gEtting tattoos, concert tickets, and new cars. I was truly in love. We had evolved past a death and an abortion which lead to greater financial freedom. At that time we had my boyfriend’s best friend living with us and it felt like a good situation.

I was raised with the option to study the metaphysical. And I did from age 13 to 22. I had 3 tarot decks which I didn’t use much. One night, I decided to open up a deck and read into my roommate and his girl friends life. It blatantly said she was pregnant and 2 days later we found out she was. It was the night of the tarot that I heard a voice. It seemed calming and had a lot to say which I wrote down to the best of my abilities. After the first night it got hard to accept and believed it was all spiritual. It was a womans voice and I thought it was an angel. Its when it said I can help you drive that I felt crazy. And the voice did drive me to feeling extremely anxious. No one knew at this time. It got to the point of me feeling violated. Nothing would ever be the same.