The desolate feeling of not knowing what to feel or say in any given situation. The stress of feeling like I lose a piece of myself daily. Then having flashbacks that are so terrifying that I tremble uncontrolably. When asked what’s wrong I can honestly say that I have no idea.
I am high functioning and am going to school, but the stress causes some paranoia. I feel judged and I wish to be able to be free of this blasted feeling inadequate.
How do you explain the hopelessness that occurs sporadically causing withdrawal and frustration. At times I feel cold and emotionless, but other times I alsmost feel normal. My past experiences taught me to fight the uncontrolable urges that over take my reason. I’ve learned to control those urges, because of them I hitched hiked to florida.
During times of duress I suffer hallucinations that scare me to death and hear voices that aren’t truely there.
